too many?

tomorrow is my birthday,,
but today, i, miraculously could have my afternoon nap, am sick.
this is because of the hot-rainy-and-hot-and-then-rainy-again season in denpasar.

it's a difference, you know, when i say that the cause of my illness is the season.
usually, i said that i was sick because i got so many lessons to do.
i'd blame my parents because they tell me to learn countless subjects.

everyday.
yeah except for sundays.


since i was in elementary school, people said that i was 1 cm away from a businesswoman.
they said that i was too busy as a kid, with one, two or three lesson(s) a day.
here's the list of all things that i've done since i was in elementary school :

• Ballet dancing
• modern dancing
• abacus (math, basically)
  
• school subject tutorials
• piano lesson
  
• singing lesson
• violin lesson
  
• guitar lesson
• painting/drawing lesson
• swimming tutorials
• English class
• megabrain lesson (makes me to memorize and learn things better and faster)

it was tiring, exhausting and dead-causing doing all of those things.
i mean, can you imagine it?
a ten-year-old girl doing 12 different additional courses.

i used to complain to my mom.
i used to not understand the importance of studying.
i used to ask "why me?" , "why that much?" , and "when?"
when do these nightmares stop haunting my days?

years passed.
and...

ballet dancing was going to Antarctica.
modern dancing was visiting Egypt.
abacus and megabrain moved to the south pole.
guitar and singing lesson was migrating to Iraq.
and the last but not least, the F-ing unimportant swimming tutorials, it flew to china.

five more lessons to go!

unexpectedly,
Chinese language made Bali as its habitat. but it only stayed for less than a year.
Japanese language stayed in Denpasar, but only for 6 months.
French language---it still lives here until today.

now, in highschool, i'm only doing 6 different lessons,
but of course they're not once a week only.
the school subjects tutorials are thrice a week.
the others are once a week!

now i think i'm more or less 7cm away from a businesswoman...

so, all of us surely have experienced changes.
this is one of many changes in my life. and this is the nice one.
but of course things change, and some might be worse than before.

may be,,,
next year i'm 9cm away.


who knows??

what makes me happyyyyy

i enjoy my life so far. do you?
are you really happy? cuz, may be you're saying that you're so happy your mom bought you a blackberry or a new pair of jimmy choo's. but, think about it. is this kind of happiness likely to last for the rest of your life?

i don't think so,cuz i have experienced this type of feeling many, many times. and for me, being loved and supported by my family and friends bring me to a much more delightful life.

here's a story i want to share to all of ya:

you know, since i was a cute little girl, i always wanted to buy everything that i think is beauutiifulll. a limited edition barbie doll, a pair of exclusive nike shoes, a full collection of harajuku lovers perfume, a second-generation ipod touch, a macbook, a comfortable king koil bed to sleep on, et cetera. i thought having all of those things would make me cool and admired.

i finally got most of them, btw.
the moment i touched them, i felt really, really proud of myself that i succeeded persuading my parents to buy me those things. but.. let's say, 1 day? 1 week? 1 month later i even forgot that those stuff existed. not that i totally forgot them, but, i don't appreciate them as much as i did when they first belonged to me.

1 year later...

i forgot them completely.
entirely.

but however, i learned something.
that you may be longing for a thing that you really want. but what happens after you got them, you forget about them.

it's the reverse for the love of family and friends.
may be you don't realize how deep is their love to you. like i did before.
but when i start sharing my problems with them, especially my mom, i learned that i couldn't live without my family. i keep wondering why didn't i value my family before.
and when i recall those moments when we laughed, played, even when we were mad to each other, i thank God that he gave me an imperfect family and caring friends. they're the ones that make my life happy. i mean, really happy.

what's more...

i can't really rely on my favourite and expensive thing like i rely on my friends and fam rite?



so, start loving them even more than they love you!!